Three Days
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Drowsiness sets in, my eyes fade in and out. .partly, clearly,
And humidity takes captive the air I breathe, my body's weary,
Cotton ball taste, mucus glossed teeth, and a tender feel,
While the brush of my tongue on the roof of my mouth replinished my inner guilt,
The first night, focused and my stance stood frozen, but yet,
I watched her sleep, stroking my manhood over the bed,
So viciously brave, she embraced a bear full of cuddled lies,
While my tentative moans drowned out her muffled cries,
She was only 6, and my breakdown, 'cause she was my slave now,
My only reason to live, my daughter became my figurative playground,
Soon admiration was hands on, her fears were my astonishment,
And these sleepless nights would forshadow years of punishment,
I regain consciousness, but she wants me to rot nightly,
Because I'm still trapped and abandoned, the door locked tightly,
A choice, not likely, she was an object, a sudden relief,
So her abundance of grief died with her puddle of dreams,
See her tears of hope were in a path of past loss,
And her wrath, flaws fused THIS being the last straw,
Now brolic, her wit has given her a marvolous itch,
To be in complete control while I lay in a bottomless pit,
Six years of mutilation, and I bargained twice,
Cuz it only takes the first time, to be scarred for life,
Drifting emotions and wondering moods, so foolishly revealed,
That left her with bruises and puncture wounds that soon couldn't be healed,
An inexistent childhood that she couldn't relive, and sadly won't,
Just midnight screams from sexual trauma, and 'Daddy DONT's,
I was selfishly ashamed, so I repented in guilt,
But soon after constantly, repeatedly, I reinvented the FILTH,
She was calm, but intentional, and her grudge was intact,
That caused me to stumble simultaneously, with a nudge in the back,
Corruptive in fact, her remorse was so torn, empty,
That the ripped pieces swarmed against me for every forced entry,
It was my choice, simply, to neglect the one,
That made me place the shame I WAS supposed to PROTECT her from,
And the respect? Was none, crying was a miserable touch,
A pitiful fuss literally crushed with the belittle of trust,
Love was a critical MUST, I violated the power,
Now I pace back n forth rioting, parading for hours,
The face of a coward, burdens, the servant awaits,
But for now, her and Satan gave me my personal space,
Never refurnished, the place, will be vacant soon,
Pearly gates of hell, the basement was the waiting room,
I can't escape, I'm doomed. .and she sits on the floor, sobs,
The tears of revenge/pain, the chair propped under the door knob,
Her tears smeared, her gestures, her wishing to feel together,
Because three days won't eclipse MY six years of pleasure,
She'll fear, forever, but for now she won't stop for more,
Cause life is a lot safer, until she unlocks the door.
7. You've been locked in a basement by your child. Expand.
-Nique.