So So So many mistakes that ive commited during my life
so so so so many times i have gaven up during my fight
refused 2 stay focused on my goals...hopeing and wishing
my secrets digged deeper than bait on a lure during fishing
so so so many dark secrets that i contained in my closet
so many times i chose to reject instead of accept knowledge
hard headed goals i set in stone that i refused to let budge
instead i held a grudge and forced my self to be my judge
a case that i couldnt win..a case that actually never existed
good times reminisent to the spirelling emotions now twisted
within the temptation and lack of motivation of my new path
that was paved towards my grave my days now cut in half
my calf's & knees are turning cold & my hair is brittle and old
my legs and knees are buckling..and my chest is about to fold
my palms are sweating so so so much that it begins 2 hurt
why am i hurting...why am i fainting...was this life i lived worth
all the victims i accumulated during my trials and tribulations
now im laying here paralyzed my eyes seeing the ill patients
that seemed to suffer and utter the same mutters i udered
then i looked out the caged window and say a bird fluttered
inbetween a tree and a branch...and then it fell down quickly
silly me thinkin that std's diseases & aids wouldnt cum get me
see my blood count is changing like the winter & fall seasons
but why should i stay here..i knew and didnt tell for no reason
so now my life is vannishing and damnit its so so so my fault
i should of listened instead of fought the lesson i were taught
now my life is so so so so gone & my body is about 2 reject me
im jus prayin..im so so sorry i just hope my father will accept me
*Opens my arms*