Topic: I used a pic and topics #18 and #20
Times like this I remember the sound that brought me cheer
When things got downright awful I’d look to you, my dear
Cause you stayed positive through it all when I couldn’t see
The light at the end of the tunnel, you’d said there’d always be
Screw me for my pessimism, it only made things worse
Me here with an empty wallet, you an empty purse
Here I felt like a boy with no means of survival
Felt even worse when you told me of our unborn arrival
I tried to stay positive through it all while you kept a smile
You couldn’t wait to deliver, and truth is I didn’t want a child
But how could I tell you and stifle the laughter you brought to us
I just said never mind and continued to show paternal fuss
Scared to disappoint you, I continued to look for jobs each day
But repeated felons just don’t ever have an easy way
Do I go back to hustling and risk a life with you
Or do I make excuses and tell myself “do what I gotta do”
If I slang again I’m risking my life, yours, and my unborn child’s
This stressful period is enough to make a man go wild
But still you laugh and love all of my stresses to an ease
That in itself is enough to make me fall down to my knees
I’m asking God to make a way even if it is difficult
Cause after blessing me with a woman who brings my pain to halt
I just need the strength to show my family that I can be a man
But I also need for God to assist, please help me see a plan
So I thought of school and honestly it made me cringe
Two semesters from graduating, should I begin again
I never was a braniac but I know I can get the help
Plus you are the brave one my worries can go up on the shelf
I’m sitting here waiting for the doctor to tell me news
Everybody’s walking back and forth like zombies and fools
I just need the laughter that you give to reassure me your ok
18 hours of labor and then they decide to take me away
I wanted to be there for you but there were complications
I got angry with doc cause he gave me no information
And as uncertain as I am right now I know the decision is made
Once we get out of here, my educations what will get us paid
Your strength is the thing that has shown me a sort of clarity
Never seen so much courage from anyone I’ve ever seen
You are the one who is turning we into a family
My sweet girl, my new born child, and a brand new me
I just want to hear you laugh in this moment of happiness
I want to share this moment with you in this time of bliss
Let you know to make this family right, I’ll do what I can
This stressful period has turned me into a better man
*he hears laughter in happiness, and a baby crying*