Entrant 13
I promise was what she told me…an answer so frivolous
A souvenir to my heart, more a romantic deliverance
See I trusted her word, absurd, it enhanced the remembrance
Blinded by her subsiding will, I was masked within ignorance
I’d later see she was one I’d have no chance of commitment with
Back stabbed by the chick I went through a manic belligerence
Every time I looked in her eyes, I abandoned her innocence
I knew she was lying but stayed, understand it’s ridiculous
But the chance of resistance is too hard when you know the truth
The only thing now is plan payback and hope she don’t notice you
It sucks when your told something, and you wanna hope its true
But it’s not and you’re well aware, shit…what am I sposed to do
I been with her for six years we’ve been through the old and new
To find out a promise she made is now something she wont persue
But there’s a problem, I cant prove a thing, a theory’s my only proof
And im stuck being a pawn to her game if I don’t refute
What do I say? Should I be blunt, and claim she’s a hoax and group
Together the thoughts I have and say she’s a ho then stoop
To a level lower than hers, and yell til I coax the mute
And get her to spill the beans, to the point there is no excuse
Im so confused….
Cause I really do love her, but im really certain she’s cheating
When she passes up dinner, saying she’s with her girls for the weekend
Just thinking about it urks me, it re-occurs when im sleeping
Cause my conscience antagonizes me, blurting out that she’s freaking
I surface into the deep end, treading waters of hate and disgust
Cause if I catch her in the act, she’ll see the rage in me bust
I’d basically break her face for a day full of lust
Muster the craziest stimulation while erasing the flux
That keeps me wanting to be with her, impatient, I must
Confront the bitch, and rush her quick if she’s invading my trust
And punch her with my fucking fist until she’s bathing in blood
Waiting for what, I need to act, I know she’s making shit up
Im angry because…
I know she’s out there, screwing another man
So I pick up my keys while I hold jail time in my other hand
Cause now im so pissed off if I find her im gonna slam
Her and the dude she’s with, shoot a clip, do you understand
I start my brothers van, cause she’s out in the…whip that I own
But deep inside im wishing that it’s me and her on a simple ride home
The drive is intense, swerving through traffic, downtown’s what I got my eyes on
It’s dark out but it’s luminous inside from the glare of my chrome
I sigh low, I see her, and as I thought, she’s with another
Guy, but the story get’s deeper…I see her with my brother
I get sick to my stomach, besides the point we have different mothers
It hurts worse cause I know he’s the type to forget a rubber
Cause it was just this summer, it was scary but I smiled
When the bitch told me with a straight face she was carrying my child
That’s around the time I start feeling I was married in denial
And now the puzzle comes together, as im glaring in the crowd
His face buried in her gown, I start approaching with a temper
Without an ounce of doubt because they’ve both been a dissenter
I stand right beside em and yell, they don’t know im in the center
Of the crowd, she turns and looks, I get cold and I remember
How much I love her, I cant move, every motion in me’s hindered
I flash back and see the two of us, just strolling in the winter
Wonderlands of the park, it goes dark, I focus and amender
And realize, I died in my sleep and been a ghost since in December
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