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i sit back, trapped in a past that rots a mind draped in black
happiness taunts a man as pain fills a flask in hand, a relapse
an unreachable grasp grabs a chill and snaps down a spine
when i relax i find his face smilin, his laughter echoes in mind
sanity resides, i lose myself rememberin past times reminiced
the thought to exist without you, i couldnt handle it, i gave in
it was too tragic, i collapsed quick constantly relivin a moment
a life alterin event grows within, turnin hidden emotions frozen
a blue sky graced the day, birds chirpin as my brother played
hot wheels and car noises dazed his ways with a smile on face
a vigourous life portrayed and an inquizative phase displayed
an innocence erased, his race car raced astray, he chased away
a couple minutes drained before i noticed all the sudden guiet
an alarm, a silent siren blared in mind, my heart paced into a riot
frightened i find my bro walkin the street unaware of a car coming
i began running, my pulse thumping in terror and blood rushing
brakes screeching as the air turned dead, i stopped breathing
an impact pointblank seen, he flopped off the ground, blood splashing
i fell to my knees, screamin prayers in hopes to see a life retreived
the driver already quickly dialing as tears proceed to bleed from me
the ambulance arrived, hooked him up, and strapped him for a ride
i watched 'em try, but its to late, my 3 year old brother died that night
and its all my fault...
...i stand here appalled, living proof of a fatal flaw
constant pain cursin thru all, every waking moment is seen in all
i dont wanna relieve the thought, i just want my lil brother back
the fact his life ended so quick and tragic, im mad at myself for that
thats why im stranded in thought, caught 6 stories up, starin down
facing my truths, my acute pain fused thru internal wounds bound
i face the ground, my everything and the only thing i could face now
to drown my sorrow in concrete, weep my loss out loud, i shout avow
but all i found was the sound of wind, as guilt dripped from my chin
glarin thru the sin of suicidal intent, i just cant forgive what i did
i tiptoe to the edge, treading thoughts to catch a glimpse of peace
but when the serenity settles with ease, all i see is the fatal scene
i begin to lean and dream of him in gods graces, overlooking me
and seeing the torture his death gave me, i quickly begin falling
im sorry, i cant sleep at night knowing that i ended your life
but before i die, remember forever, i love u, my only brother ty...
thud...
topic...
im about to jumpoff a skyscraper and plummet down....what goes thru my mind? since i have no skyscrapers where i live, imma jump off a tall building.
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"The Stony One"
im a fuckin poet, bitch recognize...
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