aight....
topic: darkest thoughts....
Dark waters flow the cracks of my brain, begin to curse it/
One stream merge wit another and whats worse is/
Black clouds clout my mind, they rain bits of hatred/
Love, envy, pain, hardship, slowly anger is created/
The sun has faded, the moon and stars replace it/
Livers burnin, the liquors hard, im wasted/
Flash backs flash fast, thoughts stroll my brain/
Heart wont unthaw, feelings fold from pain/
Forgivness is forbidden, hell's door gives in/
The devil has risen, in my soul he finds a position/
I feel mad fucked, evil thoughts start to add up/
Everything i hated joins together, sprinkeled wit a little bad luck/
Remember how my boy got stabbed up, my girl sliced her wrists/
Is life a bitch? cause i ask for help and christ just sits/
My brain's despensing alot of darkness, no peak of light/
Choose words carefully, cause only god care for me when i speak at night/
Its building up, bubbling in my body, is there a source to this?
Drunk as fuk, stumbling in the lobby, gettin off course a bit/
Theres holes in my walls, danger in my eyes/
All due to lifes wrong turns, direction i despise/
I try to think happy thoughts, but its hard to stay on track/
Every move leads me to a darker hole,i musta got the wrong map/
Therapy was there for me, but that was juss a waste of time/
Out of control now, sanity is trying to chase my mind/
I feel suicidal, it be easier to die then proceed like this/
I say that im fine, but my heart doesnt beleive my lips/
I lay down, thinkin it gunna be ok now, sound asleep/
Had a nightmare, were the devil doesnt fight fair, drown in defeat/
I get sucked into the hole, cant control the pace man/
Thought id be in graceland, but woke up in a dark wasteland/
Street lights glow, theres permenantly no sun/
A still shadow moves, adopted by motion/
Im trying to get a mental grasp, but then myself i ask/
with these circumstances, how long will my mental last?/
All the sins are comin back to haunt me, is this judgment day?
I bend down into the grave to give my parents a hug as they decay/
The devils laughing, staring at me while gods angry/
satan extends his hand out just to thank me/
A rope in the hand behind his back, ready to hang me/
God has no control, no choice, no plan B/
In this evil system, i see bush and bin laden laughing/
Two virgin girls in a cage with rapists, trapped in/
Rumsfeld strapping saddam with a bomb and weapons/
Government goon squads infecting people with they lessons/
Child molesters running daycares, while the mothers out cheating/
Jesus fell of the cross, laying in the gutter slowly bleeding/
People around me start dissinigrating, slowly evaporating/
Im left last and waitin, stuck in the grasp of satan/
I see my reflection in his glissining eyes/
Im ressisting to die, as he's squishing my pride/
I start SCreamin....
My wife slaps me, tells my drunk us to get upstairs/
I awake on the table, but i can swear i was just there/
It felt so real, why did evil reveal its realness/
But it wasnt so much real, juss my mind in the state of feebleness/
So its something i learned, make sure your mind never weakens/
Cause thats the first sign of the reaping demons/
The darkest thoughts could alter and change your life/
so Make sure your brains are right when you see satan insight/
and pray the acts of god will stop the blackest thought/