“I'm tired of all this nonsense about beauty being only skin-deep. That's deep enough. What do you want, an adorable pancreas?”
- Jean Kerr
I’m writing, inciting thoughts, and inviting peace,
It’s that silver lining lighting me up, I never cease,
The words flourish; my confidence starts to increase,
I too have a soul I nourish, even though I’m obese,
My mind travels; I start thinking about Clarisse,
It all unravels; she’s the true splendor of Greece,
Yet only two nights prior I held her in my arms,
Using my masculine charms to keep her out of harms,
Way…but I dare say, she let her eyes betray,
The thought that women like her never display,
Affection and desire, towards men that perspire,
While drinking a cup of tea that’s long from the fire,
But never mind that, I missed my only chance,
My love of first glance, has left to Paris, France,
Au revior my romance, and so complacently,
I let it be, falling into slumber, alone yet free.
Unfortunately, my brain had other ideas in mind,
How could I have been so blind, I need to go find,
My Clarisse, my goddess left unprotected, alone,
How could I have neglected, her desire and moan,
Pawning it off as though it was just a mistake,
But then why did she shake and grow so awake,
Between her thighs, letting her eyes, speak for her,
Why did these thoughts never seem to occur?
“Nous sommes arrivés Monsieur…”
Those gentle French words, they plague my dream,
“We have arrived Sir…” whatever could she mean,
It is at that moment that I start looking around,
I feel my heart start to pound because this ground,
Is the unmistakable soil I’ve seen twice in my life,
On a trip to Paris to visit my dad and his wife,
I swore to never return, claiming my mother’s urn,
But it seems my sleep walking mind did yearn,
To possibly find that lover of mine, my beauty divine,
And bind our desires letting our souls intertwine.
I anxiously paced, leaving behind the terminal gate,
Possessed by haste, I check, the directory’s straight,
Dead ahead in front of my oh so nervous pupils,
No longer was I the victim of countless scruples,
Today I’ve become a man, who tango’s with fate,
And so it began, I called and scheduled a date,
Claiming to be some sort of foreign press reporter,
So I went to freshen up as I had until a quarter,
To three, going to boutiques filled with bourgeoisie,
Until I found myself at her door in the Grand Marquis.
Flowers in hand I knocked with an utter urgency,
Cause if I didn’t kiss her soon, I’d need the emergency,
Room to resuscitate a heart shattered by love,
Yet I startled Clarisse, barging in with a push and shove,
Indeed I can see that my face drew recognition,
But it became clear I wasn’t the best tactician,
That’s why Clarisse’s bodyguard put a gun to my head,
Why are you here you beast, her eyes filled with dread,
Now seeing her smile did cease, I felt anger instead,
Why did you toy with me my gentle Clarisse?
Making me have to display you for the police.
At that moment it all turned black, the anger of rejection,
Her utter disgust and my dreams of lusty conception,
She was warm in my giant arms for a minute or two,
Until Clarisse and her body guard lay dead, bodies blue,
Yet I was no rapist, I stifled vomiting at the scene,
Remaining a bittersweet reject, who wanted to be seen,
On any night other than the dreaded Halloween,
But we all know the beast will never get the Queen.