No Longer

[onewoman2late]

Each hour of every day i see her......

she haunts me even when i sleep!!!!

she swallows my life she embodies all that i think....

I have to be silent not saying a word because whatever i do shell consume til its hers......

Shes starring at me through dule dark brown eyes as if she can see all my doubts my downfalls the very structer to my woman anatomy
She opens me up and shows me my fears again letting me know shes watching and though i dont speak all my emotions shes hears.

She watches me through out my day then she looks me directly into my soul its burnt full of ashes hellish dismay theres so much anger and rage that i dont know what cleary to say then speaks i try to hide close my eyes clear my mind i cant take this blame its not all mine..........

I awake at night scared as hell knowing i have to answer her for something i did wrong or task i once failed God i pray just let me die i was wrong but how many tears must i cry........... why must this be all that i am constantly dogeing her sight. i know i was her mistake and the darkness in her light but each time i try does that mean i havent done right???

She now comes to me only in stuttle times...........

I take it God heard me and for once the pressures not all mine
Sometimes all the love i loved isnt returned im still here to tell you for their misatkes some things unclear........... and now she no longer taunts me for the roles are switched im no longer my past BITCH

[Natty LoCs]

yeeaaa were gonna have to talk about this one some more...the structure was better like we talked about last time...but, i holla at u tonight about it some more good drop tho lil mama