I Love You More

illete · 09-03-2005, 06:53 PM

i love you more and thats the truth
because if you loved me half as much as i love you, this is one thing that you would never put me through
i had your fuckin wedding ring picked out, i was going to get a job in sales
just so i could afford a man made rock i saw at zales
because you were worth that to me, i could have spent 10 million dollars on that ring
i would have payed it back for 3 lifetimes to make you happy
and you tell me everythings alright but is that just another line
counting every tear is my only way to pass the time
i lost track at a couple hundred thousand and one, it sucks huh
even this notebook im writin in has got me down as a mafucka
because you wrote my name inside, even ya crappy handwriting makes me cry
it used to make me laugh, i just find it hard to smile
and i know that you cannot truly understand the way i feel
i write these words on paper to you so i can heel
but healing is a process, and dealing is a process
but i can never heal without you by my side, im trying to make that obvious
everybody is telling me to be a prick and not talk to you and if you really love me you'll come back
but i know that if i let you go just far enough you will get to feelin too relaxed
and maybe think that you are in the place you need to be
and you will think that place is somewhere other than with me
but deep down in my heart, whats left of it
i know that you were truly heavensent
better than an angel to me
you were young when we got together i'm wondering if you just outgrew me
wondering but hoping otherwise, otherwise my life would be pointless
if i can at least live for the shot we would get back together like the beastie boys did
i could never touch a pen and paper ever again and never in my entire life spit another rap
i could quit every last one of my favorite things, just to have you back
i might as well quit now because every topic that i speak on is about you
and i will continue this as long as i'm allowed to
because you are all i kno, all i see and hear and feel
thats why when we are apart, us together is all too real
everything about you makes my eyes fill with water
thinkin about us married, 1 son, 1 daughter
living whereever you want to, you could stay at home if you like
teaching our kids how to read write and ride a bike
but kids are a long time away, especially for me
because i'm single, and the only one that i would ever raise kids with is single too but this is all the same story
and i dont really understand how this will all workout better for everybody
but you say it will and i believe you because its more than your trust that got me
it was the way you used to look at me and the way i felt when i saw that look
your love alone was better than any trip i could take or any story from a book
but this is all a mute point in life and logic, logical behavior and love
without you in my life forever means back to alcohol and drugs
and i know you dont want that to happen to me
and if i cleaned back up you would be happy for me
but i dont need your happiness i need your love and longingness to live
with me up at ya side and down the road a couple kids
i still remember every section of the ring i was thinking about getting you
the size, the beauty, even the price was truly fitting you
and i know you like the finer things, designer things
i just hope one day you'll give me the chance to buy that diamond ring
without you i might get a job, a nice car, some nice clothes, and some fresh wheels
but without you ridin with me, fuck it, thats too real
without you i might not get a job, sell my car, have bummy ass clothes and end my record deal
it seems im in a cartoon without the comedy, i keep hittin that same god damned banana peel
im still in shock a little bit because i still cant function properly
i've cryed and whined and balled like a baby on every square inch of my property
and i know its not ya fault and i know its not ya problem
it makes me feel a little better you still have the heart to be calling
but as i sit here on the bricks that make my sidewalk
i think of a whole new life about to embark
but then i keep thinking about everything that made me love you all along
like the way you would; yell at my fuckin dogs, sit on my couch, practially live in my house, eat our food (everything except steak) and even tell me it was "tight" when i made a shitty song
i hope you can read this where the tears have smeared the ink
and i hope we join again before i reach eternal sleep

- General - · 09-03-2005, 10:43 PM

This is very long but I read the whole thing, The emotion is nice, and I can relate to your feelings when you expressed how you felt about her

and i know you like the finer things, designer things
i just hope one day you'll give me the chance to buy that diamond ring
without you i might get a job, a nice car, some nice clothes, and some fresh wheels
but without you ridin with me, fuck it, thats too real
without you i might not get a job, sell my car, have bummy ass clothes and end my record deal
it seems im in a cartoon without the comedy, i keep hittin that same god damned banana peel
^ These lines really made your poem stand out and I felt they were the best lines

also one problem I see is that you expressed the same feeling in different ways whcih were repitive

Quotive · 09-03-2005, 10:46 PM

God damn dude..

This hit home extra hard. I mean EXTRA hard. lol me ex is getting married, haha. She lives w/ this dude.. It's weird for me, I mean I don't exactly care, but it's something I'm not used to. You know?

This shit was just.. too fucking ill. So many lines to quote...

"i could never touch a pen and paper ever again and never in my entire life spit another rap
i could quit every last one of my favorite things, just to have you back"

^ Ill..

Vote for poem of the month.. fuck it poem of the year

illete · 09-04-2005, 05:06 PM

thank you for the love.. and the criticism.. i am getting back into the poetry side of things.. i signed a record label deal for rap.. but poetry is how i got started.. and i have strayed from the basics.. im going back to the beginnings.. again.. thanks for the love.. and thanks for the criticism.. i havent read any of generals work.. but quotive.. i think you said somethin in a poem like.. "........ seeyour smile again, it puzzles me, how did i get so lucky.. a price unsee to many, how can i repay heaven for a gift so lovely"??? maybe not.. could be way off.. but i read that and it was ill (whoever wrote it).. i know i have read your work though.. and you are talented..
thanks

skandelous_lala · 09-05-2005, 06:59 AM

There's so many things I want to say..but I'll spare you a super long post and just say that I was really feeling this. It's so very much dripping with emotion. There were so many lines that tugged at my heart..

illete · 09-06-2005, 06:06 PM

thank you.. glad you liked it

LadyL257 · 09-06-2005, 07:31 PM

this poem really got me...crazy how everyone can feel the same way but still do things in a crazy way...meaning i feel that Love the same way about someone but i still have a side of me that wonder what else is there for me... seein this poem commin from a dude and seein his side of situations... i now see *Not tryna down you* but dudes got emotions as well as i do...

Favorit Part
everybody is telling me to be a prick and not talk to you and if you really love me you'll come back
but i know that if i let you go just far enough you will get to feelin too relaxed
and maybe think that you are in the place you need to be
and you will think that place is somewhere other than with me
but deep down in my heart, whats left of it
i know that you were truly heavensent
better than an angel to me
you were young when we got together i'm wondering if you just outgrew me
wondering but hoping otherwise, otherwise my life would be pointless

1luv

illete · 09-07-2005, 12:36 PM

yeah no problem.. i'm an emotional cat.. but its all love ya dig.. thanks for the comment..

RealMS · 09-07-2005, 11:14 PM

Oh my goodness

I am going to get back at you on this one, cause everybody knows I Looooove to elaborate. Your meaning behind the title of this is unbelievable. I don't know why. This is truly heartfelt, and I mean that. Dang, that emotion just spoke out to me. For the situation you are in, for you to write it out that well (no lie)--it just came naturally. This is beautiful. Oooh, I'll be back. Keep writing.

-Much Love

illpoetical · 09-07-2005, 11:50 PM

the emotion was as real as it gets. you caught the essence of the poem here. i think there are some poems that just get what they want done. tight piece

akqrate · 09-07-2005, 11:58 PM

"everybody is telling me to be a prick and not talk to you and if you really love me you'll come back
but i know that if i let you go just far enough you will get to feelin too relaxed
and maybe think that you are in the place you need to be
and you will think that place is somewhere other than with me"

man, its the desperation and madness of your logic that makes this piece so effective. I couldn't stop reading. Awesome work bro. Cheers for keepin it real.

illete · 09-09-2005, 01:43 PM

thanks for the views my people

*Six-Shootah* · 09-20-2005, 03:49 AM

DAMN NI99A THIS POEM SMASHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! funny thing is im in a situation so similar to this one right now and i just shared some of ya lines and she started crying.....seriously dog...im sorry i couldnt let her know it wasnt ma shit but im lettin you know dat poem has effected my life in a positive way

Mind~$oul · 09-20-2005, 04:33 AM

^Do not up any poems that aren't on the first page please.

09-03-2005, 06:53 PM	#1 (permalink)
illete Howdy Howdy Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Missouri Posts: 1,776	I Love You More i love you more and thats the truth because if you loved me half as much as i love you, this is one thing that you would never put me through i had your fuckin wedding ring picked out, i was going to get a job in sales just so i could afford a man made rock i saw at zales because you were worth that to me, i could have spent 10 million dollars on that ring i would have payed it back for 3 lifetimes to make you happy and you tell me everythings alright but is that just another line counting every tear is my only way to pass the time i lost track at a couple hundred thousand and one, it sucks huh even this notebook im writin in has got me down as a mafucka because you wrote my name inside, even ya crappy handwriting makes me cry it used to make me laugh, i just find it hard to smile and i know that you cannot truly understand the way i feel i write these words on paper to you so i can heel but healing is a process, and dealing is a process but i can never heal without you by my side, im trying to make that obvious everybody is telling me to be a prick and not talk to you and if you really love me you'll come back but i know that if i let you go just far enough you will get to feelin too relaxed and maybe think that you are in the place you need to be and you will think that place is somewhere other than with me but deep down in my heart, whats left of it i know that you were truly heavensent better than an angel to me you were young when we got together i'm wondering if you just outgrew me wondering but hoping otherwise, otherwise my life would be pointless if i can at least live for the shot we would get back together like the beastie boys did i could never touch a pen and paper ever again and never in my entire life spit another rap i could quit every last one of my favorite things, just to have you back i might as well quit now because every topic that i speak on is about you and i will continue this as long as i'm allowed to because you are all i kno, all i see and hear and feel thats why when we are apart, us together is all too real everything about you makes my eyes fill with water thinkin about us married, 1 son, 1 daughter living whereever you want to, you could stay at home if you like teaching our kids how to read write and ride a bike but kids are a long time away, especially for me because i'm single, and the only one that i would ever raise kids with is single too but this is all the same story and i dont really understand how this will all workout better for everybody but you say it will and i believe you because its more than your trust that got me it was the way you used to look at me and the way i felt when i saw that look your love alone was better than any trip i could take or any story from a book but this is all a mute point in life and logic, logical behavior and love without you in my life forever means back to alcohol and drugs and i know you dont want that to happen to me and if i cleaned back up you would be happy for me but i dont need your happiness i need your love and longingness to live with me up at ya side and down the road a couple kids i still remember every section of the ring i was thinking about getting you the size, the beauty, even the price was truly fitting you and i know you like the finer things, designer things i just hope one day you'll give me the chance to buy that diamond ring without you i might get a job, a nice car, some nice clothes, and some fresh wheels but without you ridin with me, fuck it, thats too real without you i might not get a job, sell my car, have bummy ass clothes and end my record deal it seems im in a cartoon without the comedy, i keep hittin that same god damned banana peel im still in shock a little bit because i still cant function properly i've cryed and whined and balled like a baby on every square inch of my property and i know its not ya fault and i know its not ya problem it makes me feel a little better you still have the heart to be calling but as i sit here on the bricks that make my sidewalk i think of a whole new life about to embark but then i keep thinking about everything that made me love you all along like the way you would; yell at my fuckin dogs, sit on my couch, practially live in my house, eat our food (everything except steak) and even tell me it was "tight" when i made a shitty song i hope you can read this where the tears have smeared the ink and i hope we join again before i reach eternal sleep __________________ Throw Ya Z's Up Email : illete@zurirecords.com AIM : illetedakid iLLeTe @ MySpace

09-03-2005, 10:43 PM	#2 (permalink)
- General - Registered User Join Date: Sep 2005 Posts: 28	This is very long but I read the whole thing, The emotion is nice, and I can relate to your feelings when you expressed how you felt about her and i know you like the finer things, designer things i just hope one day you'll give me the chance to buy that diamond ring without you i might get a job, a nice car, some nice clothes, and some fresh wheels but without you ridin with me, fuck it, thats too real without you i might not get a job, sell my car, have bummy ass clothes and end my record deal it seems im in a cartoon without the comedy, i keep hittin that same god damned banana peel ^ These lines really made your poem stand out and I felt they were the best lines also one problem I see is that you expressed the same feeling in different ways whcih were repitive __________________ G Up Yall Down

09-04-2005, 05:06 PM	#4 (permalink)
illete Howdy Howdy Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Missouri Posts: 1,776	thank you for the love.. and the criticism.. i am getting back into the poetry side of things.. i signed a record label deal for rap.. but poetry is how i got started.. and i have strayed from the basics.. im going back to the beginnings.. again.. thanks for the love.. and thanks for the criticism.. i havent read any of generals work.. but quotive.. i think you said somethin in a poem like.. "........ seeyour smile again, it puzzles me, how did i get so lucky.. a price unsee to many, how can i repay heaven for a gift so lovely"??? maybe not.. could be way off.. but i read that and it was ill (whoever wrote it).. i know i have read your work though.. and you are talented.. thanks __________________ Throw Ya Z's Up Email : illete@zurirecords.com AIM : illetedakid iLLeTe @ MySpace Last edited by illete; 09-04-2005 at 06:59 PM.

09-05-2005, 06:59 AM	#5 (permalink)
skandelous_lala back from the dead Join Date: Sep 2000 Location: Hey! Fuck you and the horse you rode in on! Posts: 26,707	There's so many things I want to say..but I'll spare you a super long post and just say that I was really feeling this. It's so very much dripping with emotion. There were so many lines that tugged at my heart.. __________________ ALL YOU REALLY KNOW IS WHAT I CHOOSE TO SHOW Good Mourning, Good afternoon, Good nite, what have you done with your life?. Everybody's time comes to be embraced by the light you only afraid to die when you ain't livin right

09-06-2005, 06:06 PM	#6 (permalink)
illete Howdy Howdy Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Missouri Posts: 1,776	thank you.. glad you liked it __________________ Throw Ya Z's Up Email : illete@zurirecords.com AIM : illetedakid iLLeTe @ MySpace

09-06-2005, 07:31 PM	#7 (permalink)
LadyL257 Registered User Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: Syracuse, Ny Posts: 182	this poem really got me...crazy how everyone can feel the same way but still do things in a crazy way...meaning i feel that Love the same way about someone but i still have a side of me that wonder what else is there for me... seein this poem commin from a dude and seein his side of situations... i now see Not tryna down you but dudes got emotions as well as i do... Favorit Part everybody is telling me to be a prick and not talk to you and if you really love me you'll come back but i know that if i let you go just far enough you will get to feelin too relaxed and maybe think that you are in the place you need to be and you will think that place is somewhere other than with me but deep down in my heart, whats left of it i know that you were truly heavensent better than an angel to me you were young when we got together i'm wondering if you just outgrew me wondering but hoping otherwise, otherwise my life would be pointless 1luv __________________ -A LoSt SouL WhIcH CaMe As PrOmIsEd-

09-07-2005, 12:36 PM	#8 (permalink)
illete Howdy Howdy Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Missouri Posts: 1,776	yeah no problem.. i'm an emotional cat.. but its all love ya dig.. thanks for the comment.. __________________ Throw Ya Z's Up Email : illete@zurirecords.com AIM : illetedakid iLLeTe @ MySpace

09-07-2005, 11:14 PM	#9 (permalink)
RealMS Pro 31 Join Date: Feb 2004 Location: Lafayette/New Orleans, LA Posts: 4,236	Oh my goodness I am going to get back at you on this one, cause everybody knows I Looooove to elaborate. Your meaning behind the title of this is unbelievable. I don't know why. This is truly heartfelt, and I mean that. Dang, that emotion just spoke out to me. For the situation you are in, for you to write it out that well (no lie)--it just came naturally. This is beautiful. Oooh, I'll be back. Keep writing. -Much Love

09-07-2005, 11:50 PM	#10 (permalink)
illpoetical raising the bar everyday Join Date: Jun 2000 Location: Long Island Posts: 1,533	the emotion was as real as it gets. you caught the essence of the poem here. i think there are some poems that just get what they want done. tight piece __________________ How vain it is to sit down and write when you have not stood up to live. The skill of writing is to create a context in which other people can think.

09-07-2005, 11:58 PM	#11 (permalink)
akqrate Ear-candy Join Date: Sep 2001 Location: These streets below the moon Posts: 401	"everybody is telling me to be a prick and not talk to you and if you really love me you'll come back but i know that if i let you go just far enough you will get to feelin too relaxed and maybe think that you are in the place you need to be and you will think that place is somewhere other than with me" man, its the desperation and madness of your logic that makes this piece so effective. I couldn't stop reading. Awesome work bro. Cheers for keepin it real. __________________ Love, a game where the devil rolls the dice Not knowing when we threw ourselves in To keep our fire ablaze... akQrate

09-09-2005, 01:43 PM	#12 (permalink)
illete Howdy Howdy Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Missouri Posts: 1,776	thanks for the views my people __________________ Throw Ya Z's Up Email : illete@zurirecords.com AIM : illetedakid iLLeTe @ MySpace

09-20-2005, 03:49 AM	#13 (permalink)
Six-Shootah Muder Murder Join Date: Jul 2001 Location: West Los Angeles Posts: 2,174	DAMN NI99A THIS POEM SMASHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! funny thing is im in a situation so similar to this one right now and i just shared some of ya lines and she started crying.....seriously dog...im sorry i couldnt let her know it wasnt ma shit but im lettin you know dat poem has effected my life in a positive way __________________ Lakers 2003-2004 NBA Champs

09-20-2005, 04:33 AM	#14 (permalink)
Mind~$oul I'm Pretty Join Date: Apr 2001 Location: North Memphis BITCH! Posts: 17,145	^Do not up any poems that aren't on the first page please. __________________ "Everybody wanna be a nicca, but don't nobody wanna be a nicca"-Paul Mooney "I tried to live right, but society aint made for niccas to live right"-Joe Budden

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