Forever changed (please read)

[Shibbymet]

How did i get here?
All i feel is pain
I try to open my eyes but find them locked shut,
so i try to figure out what is going on
I then remember,
the reality of it hits home,
i remember looking up and seeing the pole rushing at the car
i remember not bracing myself
too shocked to move

i lay sprawled under this car
head crushed
not knowing what to do
i open my mouth to scream
nothing comes out exept blood

i hear a voice saying "Who is going to call the parents?"
Then it goes black

I wake up in a room
eyes pinned shut all i can do is listen,
i feel a cold metal table underneith my naked body
i feel something covering my body from head to toe
i then hear the footsteps

murmers outside the door to this room i am traped in
i hear my mothers voice
mabey i can go home? i say to myself
then the door opens

a woman asks "Are you sure you want to see this?"
my mothers voice replys "Yes hes my son, i need to see him one last time"
Then i realize where i am
this is not the hospital, it is the mourge
this is a sheet covering my body

the woman removes the sheet
i hear my mother gasp from her horror
am i really that bad?

i wish i had taken the time to put that seatbelt on
or mabey i could have gotten a ride with someone else
someone who wasent drunk
mabey i would still be alive

i stop to reflect on the night hoping i could change the way things happened
but i realized death is final
theres no turning back
so i sat as they closed the door on me and left me in the dark
i sat.....and i reflected.....even though my relfection was in vain

"It dosent matter whos wrong or right
No one could have stopped wat happend that night
wishs and hopes cant change a thing
nothing at all can soften the sting
what happen is over so now we must move on
no point in crying over what is already gone
we could have lost more than our friendship that day
it gives us new meaning to sit down and pray
if you hadent been drinking, and i would have known
i would have gone and found a ride of my own
someday when i am recovered and strong
i can forgive you for what you did wrong"



Hey sorry i havent posted in a while, i got into a serious car accident and almost lost my life, i just needed to write about it, its ok if you dont like this piece i dont feel it was extemely poetic, but it came straight out of what ive been feeling....if u end up reading this thank you and i hope u enjoyed it a little
p.s. wear ur seatbelt, i learned the hard way that they can save u from being seriously injured

[skandelous_lala]

I am glad to hear that you are okay! When I was 16 and extremely stupid I got into a car with someone who had been drinking. I had probably done it many times before..my lesson came to me. Dude hit a telephone pole head on. Thank God he was only going 40 mph b/c none of us had our seatbelts on and the car it with such an impact that if we would have been going any faster there is no doubt in my mind that we would have been severely injured or dead. That was my wakeup call...at only 16...as to the way I was living my life and how just like that, my life or someone else's could have been taken away b/c of something so stupid.

Anyways....

I always feel wierd commenting on a piece like this b/c I know where where it comes from.
I'll agree with you that it didn't have a totally poetic feel to it..more like you were just telling a story, but you had vivid imagery about the situation and the emotion of what might have been was touching.

Again I am so glad to hear that you are okay.

[RealMS]

I remember you

when reality hits home, it hits hard. And even if you know it well, when it hits it always seems like the first time goin through it. Thank God you're still here. I like how you switched up the poem-thinking it was the hospital room, when it was actually past that-made me say damn. It's like you got a glimpse of something else, heaven maybe, but you survived it and you're here. No needs to apologize lol

How long ago was this?

-Much Love

[Shibbymet]

few weeks thanks for reading it i enjoyed the drops, next time ill drop a real poem, but sometimes u just gutta write shit down 2 get it out
thanks