Bounced -The Bithiah Bio ..Part 1

[Bhitiah]

I wanst going to post this because I didnt want people to judge me...
But I dont fuckin care anymore because I aint anything like I used to be



I was almost twelve,
but you cant understand the hell
that was going on at home
but there was no way out
had nowhere to go

He was was seventeen
and he would take me
on late night rides
to get away from the fights
I'm ashamed to say it but...
I loved those nights

It was the summer before the 6th grade
and my big brother was trying to get paid
he wanted to get a place, and get away from the rage
that was held captive inside our 2 story house ...
that we were afraid to call our home
I knew if mom and dad knew it would tear them apart

I just kept my mouth shut, and lost the tredding on my heart
Nobody could know it, Nobody could hold it
I couldnt even get a grip on it
I felt so lost, I was so afraid

My brother was trying to get away
I needed him to stay
My sister she was never there
always spreadin' her legs for a man who didnt treat her fair
but that was somethin that was learned at "home"
and by the time anyone noticed, she was so far gone
believe me, i knew...but at 12 years old what was i supposed to do?....

My brother found a way out
but not out of the house
just out of his brain
My parents didnt believe it, they never said a thing
We lived in the burb's man, in a 2 story house
with a 2 car garage
and a big back yard
When they finally found him, foamin' at the mouth
They prayed to god, the neighbors didnt find out

I didnt understand that then, and I dont understand that now
All I know is by the time I was 13 I was ready to bounce
and I was goin' 90mph down the same fuckin route
I had my fuckin leg's spread and a blunt in my mouth
a bottle of liquor on the nightstand
beddin' a man who had no business being in my bed
and when my parents found out, know what they said?
NOTHIN'

And when the relationship with this man turned to violence
The silence of my parents took the life of their youngest child
not in the physical
but that's all i got left
at 13 I'm emotionally drained
never gonna be the same
cause im fuckin a man that's twice my age
and all i can say is he's got the best yay-
and all I can do is snort another line
and pretend for the night that this life aint mine



This is just the first part....Obviously.

[-Mac-]

Wow. That was pretty deep. We need to catch up on things. Soon.

[AlmostFamous]

He was was seventeen
and he would take me
on late night rides
to get away from the fights
I'm ashamed to say it but...
I loved those nights

i liked how you ended this stanza... in a story format... and abrupt at the end... niceness for sure

I had my fuckin leg's spread and a blunt in my mouth
a bottle of liquor on the nightstand
beddin' a man who had no business being in my bed
and when my parents found out, know what they said?
NOTHIN'

i can tell this is a very confessional piece for you bhit.... i appreciate you sharing with me along with the rest of the realm...although im sure youre not proud of most of the things you went through in the past... its what you made you who you are today

and to deny it would just not be the truth...

mos def felt this piece... thanks

rep up

[UFO the Phoenix]

It was the summer before the 6th grade
and my big brother was trying to get paid


My brother was trying to get away
I needed him to stay
My sister she was never there
always spreadin' her legs for a man who didnt treat her fair


^................

you already know how I feel about this thanks for sharing this with us

happy easter

one love

[Brit Boi Gee]

this was intense. Your descriptions not only made me visualise the house and the people, but the atmosphere in it too. This was a sad piece though.

Keep ya head up girl

[Madnick]

alot different and I liked it alot..

[RealMS]

you're known to unloading some stressful heat, at least to me with this pieces you continue to write. You're growing as one of my favorites, and I always look forward to seeing you post up here. I never attempted to write a biography type poem before about my life, but I guarantee every life is worth it. I don't know, too many ways a poet can begin it, I guess I'm just wondering how it's gonna end. Oooo was that poetic or what girl?! Nah, but girl keep consistent with this writing, its your/our way of releasing things. Me, for sure I know.

And yeah, collab we should do. Right now I'm working on one but I'll holl@ you.

-Much Love

[allnakey]

I guess this is healing in a way, to realse what needs out, to put out there the pain that needs out... Gotta push through the bad and sometimes you have to make your own good. You're a very open person... and that's a good way to get support around you. Be strong and hopefully your path to come will be more enjoyable


Stay Up, Much Love, Peace

[Mind~$oul]

I already told you how I felt about this when you first showed me. Nothing but raw emtion poured into this piece. Uppin for the sleepers


One luv

[MisterEThoughts]

wow, what everyone said... Deep and quite intense... This definitely healing... I thank you for sharing this with us... And don't you worry no one going to judge you... I don't believe we have people here that are that way... I was reading this and was just saying wow.... I liked the imagery the wording and the rhyme... I can't wait for part 2 dang I would quote the whole poem it was crazy...every line said something really stood out...

favorite lines


My brother was trying to get away
I needed him to stay
My sister she was never there
always spreadin' her legs for a man who didnt treat her fair
but that was somethin that was learned at "home"
and by the time anyone noticed, she was so far gone
believe me, i knew...but at 12 years old what was i supposed to do?....

My brother found a way out
but not out of the house
just out of his brain
My parents didnt believe it, they never said a thing
We lived in the burb's man, in a 2 story house
with a 2 car garage
and a big back yard
When they finally found him, foamin' at the mouth
They prayed to god, the neighbors didnt find out

I didnt understand that then, and I dont understand that now
All I know is by the time I was 13 I was ready to bounce
and I was goin' 90mph down the same fuckin route
I had my fuckin leg's spread and a blunt in my mouth
a bottle of liquor on the nightstand
beddin' a man who had no business being in my bed
and when my parents found out, know what they said?
NOTHIN'

And when the relationship with this man turned to violence
The silence of my parents took the life of their youngest child
not in the physical
but that's all i got left
at 13 I'm emotionally drained
never gonna be the same
cause im fuckin a man that's twice my age
and all i can say is he's got the best yay-
and all I can do is snort another line
and pretend for the night that this life aint mine

those were wow.... each of those lines made me open my mouth literly and say wow...


Stay up... Thanks once again...Your Loved.... @)-/-------- hope you feeel better.....

[Poetickz]

this was very deep and emotional, loved how u used the imagery in this, horibble, but very effective and powerful.

He was was seventeen
and he would take me
on late night rides
to get away from the fights
I'm ashamed to say it but...
I loved those nights

My brother found a way out
but not out of the house
just out of his brain
My parents didnt believe it, they never said a thing
We lived in the burb's man, in a 2 story house
with a 2 car garage
and a big back yard
When they finally found him, foamin' at the mouth
They prayed to god, the neighbors didnt find out

I didnt understand that then, and I dont understand that now
All I know is by the time I was 13 I was ready to bounce
and I was goin' 90mph down the same fuckin route
I had my fuckin leg's spread and a blunt in my mouth
a bottle of liquor on the nightstand
beddin' a man who had no business being in my bed
and when my parents found out, know what they said?
NOTHIN'

these were my favortie stanzaz...its so sad, and powerful, and unbelieveable that they didnt do nothin but try and keep it on the low....not a very effective way to go....

very nice piece...defintaley stirred me up inside, kinda reminds me of my parents and how they used to argue and fight and made me wish i was outta there.
one

[Philly_215]

i think this is my first time checking you out and as a first impression goes. i have nothing but respect for you. i feel like we just sat down and had a rap session and you let it all hang out. cause to me this wasn't a poem this was your voice of your soul releasing the hidden pains.

Much love and respect stay up let no one degrade a soul such as yours NO ONE

[lil'girl]

It's not good to think that everyone is out to judge you (although it's what mankind is best at)...I respect you for putting yourself out there...regardless of what n-e-one has to say just keep doing your thing...keepin' it real!