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[Evg.poet]

NO!
I don’t want to write
Too afraid my thoughts will get the best of me
Don’t want to express me
The battle in one’s mind is a serious thing
Scared they’ll reject me again
Instead of taking the time to help me
They stay away from me
I say that nothing’s wrong more so to convince myself than to convince you
Yet I know you don’t believe me
Cause I don’t believe me either
So I end up pushing you away

See this is a difficult thing to deal with
The music helps me not to think the thoughts, the images that haunt me

See my spirit knows I have the victory yet
The enemy tries to play tricks on me, my mind
So scripture becomes me
The WORD resides in my heart no matter what
The music keeps me worshipping.
Daddy keeps me
And right now I don’t want to be kept!!!!!
I want to lose it
Curse everyone out who dares to cross my path
Negatively or positively
But see I can’t do that
So I try to keep my distance
I do what I need to do
And sleep my troubles away
Dream things I don’t remember
And when did I start to talk in my sleep?

SMH

While

L(ing)OL

My pain seems to scream louder than my praise at times
I harbor my feelings
So my friends won’t think I’m crazy
So I won’t think I’m losing it
Either way you put it I’ll always be peculiar, different
Unpredictably, weird

Sometimes up
Sometimes down
And right now the Poet is down.

Holding on to too much seems to hurt worst than letting go
And letting go seems to hurt more than holding on and
I’m just leaking anointing that I don’t know what to do with
My character is starting to match than I fall again
I lose me again
And Daddy keeps me in spite of Me
Keeps me ministering even in my worst times
Keeps me praying even when I have no words to say
Loves me even when I want to inflict harm on myself
Crying out for help
Yet the only one who can help me is my

-D

-A

-D

-D

-Y

The one and only Jesus the Christ
He has been there for me since before He formed me
And will be by my side long after I depart from this earth
He has birthed purpose and promise inside of me
And all the things He has in store for me will be fulfilled
I am great because my Daddy is great
Even with all my flaws
See what happens when you don’t want to write
You get this
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© Evg.Poet