Dark Alley's
Become
Busy Intersections
In a world where
Hiding it
will get you caught.
Su••••ion raises
questions on
innocent minds
as they intertwine themselves
in messy underground,
activities draining themselves
from cul-de-sac's where
our children play
hide-and-go seek...
It seems
the ones not looking
are the ones that are
found.
I've seen it all
been apart of it,
bruised palms
from clenched fists
holding onto
peices...
with nothing left.
From losing myself
Friday night
to finding myself
Tuesday Morning.
A hangover
3 days in the making
Silencing withdrawals
Breaking Edges
and rounding out
other people's point's
to suit my needs...
I need no introduction
to Survival
No Intervention to
Recovery
Life has wedged itself
between my fingers
as my clenched fists
become open hands
slapping reality upside the head
knowing that
rock bottom is,
kind of cushy...
I'm more than comfortable
I'm a little afraid
Mostly, of myself
I wake up
in cold sweats
shadow's from
hung clothes
remind me I'm
alive
as my heart
pounds out of my chest
and I could make
a list
of regrets
At this point,
They'd mean little...
If not nothing..
I wait
for my eyes to adjust
to notice the
absolute ridiculousness
of my paranoia..
As I get up to
Check on my kid's Anyway...
I think I'm
the only one who
worries about
not being able to breathe,
while breathing..
I light too many ciggarettes
in a row
To know what breathing
without nicotine
feels like...
I've made mistakes,
I've done nothing to correct them
made most of them twice...
Forgive myself? Never
Forgave, Too easy...
Blame nothing
on anyone,
but me.
But I am bairly here,
Bairly aware..
Hardly Awake,
As if I know
what sleeping feels like
to judge.
I think I've ran away
from myself for too long
to trust myself
enough
to turn around and
face myself.
I stare in mirrors
and see nobody there
besides,
Running Mascara
and glazed eyes,
often too drunk
to know what drunk
is..
been gone to long
to remember,
sober..
Stuck so far in the past
that I've forgotten
what it is
to get older
to
grow up...
Maybe I'm
too unconcious
to wake up...
Maybe this is
punishment,
Maybe I've tempted
the promise
of the heat in hell
too many times..
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You can bomb the world to peices, but cant bomb into peace