[Daht Cahm]

The voices in my head scream I’m too cynical, eyes wide shut I envision hell
Being stoned by little girls, condescendingly giggling to the world I’m invisible…
Nothing beautifully metaphorical nah that shit is literal, nobody sees me
Even after physical contact they brush me off like a bee sting, believe me
So I stand tall and willow the same sad song that the trees sing, never surpassing
And it’s almost sad enough to condone laughing, sadly, watch the world pass me
No love not even mere lust, walked on daily like I’m just mere dust,
And either their mocks like quacks swear I can hear ducks, wide eyed like a deer does
No tears shed here I’ve sewn up my tear ducts, more alone than the saddest guys
But oblivious to the baddest lies, like “true love” so I’m naively satisfied
Wonder have I died? And what was I like to deserve life unbeknown to life
This world I hate but have grown despite, so I sit tree side on my own and write
Right? Then the world starts to move a little quicker, vomit stages for eruption I’m a tad bit sicker
And this web of self pity gets a tad bit thicker; the silhouettes of “people” start to flicker
I haven’t had an ounce of liquor, now the voices in my head sound a little alarming
Saying the people I long to be part of only wish to harm me, that’s why conformity seems so charming
Then suddenly time slows down, as if only for a moment, voices raging “Now you must own it”
Hold it… A faint pseudo smile in my direction seems to good don’t it? A goddess has thrown it
An entire lifetime alone it’s almost impossible. Deserve it? I have become loneliness’ servant
Early I learned this, a flick of her wrist and I emerge quick..
Then this apple of arousal turns into a serpent. A beast of temptation from once was a lady
Spiraling around me squeezing, will nobody save me? Tongue tickles my ear “Have you been seen lately?”
I whimper “This is the fate god gave me”. Never acknowledged people ignore me
She tightens her grasp, “And you think people adore me?” Smile to my face only later to scorn me
I’m a whore see, try to wake up but my heart pounds so real; wow she’s real, now it’s real
The streets empties, she screams “They go from you to me and don’t care how we feel!”
Unforgivably surrounds my heels, I look to god, but ask nothing from him
“DON’T YOU GET IT!? You are as good as those voices that come from within!”
I don’t understand. The voices say “Don’t let her in” blossom Tim grow from your stem
She releases, quivers, and says once again..

“The world is changing; people no longer have time for their friends,
No time for good, because I have stuffed them with sin
My child I am desire, you are their conscious… you mean nothing to them!”

My lips are dry; the words come out stuttered and broken
Maybe wishful hopin, and in my throat my heart I’m chokin
Eyes flutter but remain open, but damn it I’m mad
They can’t take for granted what they have, no way the whole planet is bad
I reach for the answer, none I can grab. Hopelessly yearn for the clouds
My head is ringing the voices loud, not a single person, in an Earth filled crowd
Is worthy of saving so then what now? I shriek, “Does this mean that god isn’t real
The entire world could be hungry as long as one has a meal
That’s how it feels, why does he not act? Answer me snake!”
I’ll be damned if this fate, rests on me it’s mans to with take!”
Her fire seems endless; her tongue wiggles whispers sounds so relentless.
How can I end this? She says “You are pure, you cannot be tempted;
But the world is cruel, and has turned their back on their faith
And now love is just a word, muddied, no passion is safe.”
She looks at me now… as if they’ll never see me again, eyes so full of pain
The door in my head shuts the voices out of my brain
Hate is a beast, which cannot be tamed. All things good are denied
We never ask for the truth, so it’s not like they lied
She released, and I plummet to the ground shattering my pride
The people are back, still oblivious to me… I’m not surprised.


And so I lay broken, as the snake disappears,
Only to leave me, drowning in tears
What ever happened, to the good of man kind?
And if I found the remote to our cleanliness... Could I press rewind?

----There is no good anymore… only selfish desire ----