[Blakk Chaos]

i was with this girl two years about... and i see her all the time at school.. like we will pass eachother and it'll just be some akward stare bw us.



shes got a bf... who she started fuckin so soon after we broke up that it straight amazed me... i took the girls virginity. but like a week after we break up shes fuckin him...



thing is this shit still fucking kills me. i love this girl so much.... i hate seein her with someone else and thing is she was always the one when we were together who i thought if we broke up itd be cuz of me... i know she loved me.. we havent takled really since we broke up cuz part of me is so mad at her for fuckin this guy and gettin with him so soon after we broke up... but part of me wants to be with her again...


this girl was the only person i ever felt really cared about me... when i was with her i was so happy and had no worries about anything..


now that were done i try gettin over her and talkn to other girls and shit, but i'll start talkin to a chick and then just stop any ties with her other then friends bcuz i cant feel for her like i felt for my ex... u know??


damn i dont know what to do....