Certain moments and memories stayed, while the rest cleared with time
With years black and white turned gray, I remember my old state of mind
Fascinated by love along with bitter and childish jealousy
When in bed with a painted woman wasn't my wildest fantasy
When I couldn't close my eyes because the sky felt so dark
How I'd tell my father I'm scared and he'd take me by hand to the park
How my very first crush was an innocent game of attraction
How I did what I had to do, and didn't care for the coming reaction
How I stood there on my feet, with my shirt ripped and my face bloody
Recieving punch and another punch, to my head chest and my body
How I ran crying home, with my parents smiling, but sad
My mother putting bandages on me asking "who beat you so bad"?
When friends were my friends, and not something I was supposed to have
When I wasn't afraid of my smile, and to break a silent room with a laugh
When I respected a person for being true to their goals and destiny
Not after looking at them and figuring they had high yearly estimates
How I was never afraid to sing along to all my favorite songs
How I curled under my blankets cause I thought about death for too long
When I would feel blessed in the morning, just because I woke up
Walking to school happy and looking up, even if weather outside sucked
When I thought I was in love but didn't know what to expect or feel
How I snuck a kiss in just to see if the feeling was real
When I went dont the hill on the bike so devishly fast
I got scared and jumped off, next morning woke up with a cast
How the color was so flourescent I could taste the aquarel sky
So sweet and satisfying I didn't need to be wondering.... Why
Never shy to get down on the ground and flood it with tears
Standing in awe and watching, as my agonized mood disappears
Things changed with time, but time didn't seem to change with them
Always felt like it wasn't enough to gain the desired wisdom
Covering my face with my palms when all my eyes craved was the world
Like an orange leaf ripped off a tree, I felt like my story's been told
None of the moments I remember as vivid, as I remember the day
And the hour, when I laid in my bed, realizing it all went away