[Atheist]

even with all the great topics to chose from, i couldn't write my best. i just didn't feel up for it.



i guess it all started when i opened my eyes, hoping to find
a little bit of hope that wasn't broken inside
but only in time would i learn that i'd be lonely for life
while trying to battle a voice that always gloats in my mind

see people told me i was crazy but i weren't listening,
i never was
instead i followed the voices in my head -
i'm sure you've got them too, doesn't everyone?
they told me i was better than this, they told me "crazy" wasn't a sin
they told me to do what i wanted as long as i listened to them
so that's what i did, i mean, who was i too argue with the voices?
cause after i listened to them
i soon enough believed in their noises

it all started when i was young, playing with bows and arrows
honing in on the evil that would grow from shadows
and alone in battle, i would hunt for food and lust its taste
clutch its pain, smell its fear and touch its face
the animal instincts kicked in, all that was on my mind was survival
and eventually i abandoned the arrows, started clinching a rifle
surviving was all that mattered to me, nothing else
but its sensation was a thorn in my side
like the rifle that clutched my belt

see i'm the man who goes to war to become a patriot
but i'm the same man who's so afraid that he walks away from it
i'm the man who invented the car for its thunderous feel
but i'm the same man who's lying dead under its wheel
i'm the man in the white house that you all see as sickening
but i'm the same man who was ruined by monica lewinsky
i'm the man who put his boot on the moon and saw the universe
but i'm the same man who dreamt of those stars but never returned
and the list goes on...

cause my name is glorified, i swept the sea and torched the skies
and when tears poured at night -
the next morning i'd love myself more than life
but i'm sure in time i will be gone because i worship myself
and my father always told me i shouldn't break the commandments
so i guess i'm going to hell
cause i'm that man who grew up with love
but was consumed by hate
so forgive father for i am sin, the human race

the day i found myself.